Reminiscing...

Was flipping thru old pics and was just thinking of what great and awesome frens i have...they have played huge parts in my life...found out how important frens are to me and im grateful for them in my life :D

anyways...i have been practicing dream recalling for the sake of one step further...which is to go astral travelling...seems so interesting to try anyway...maybe one day i'll visit others in their dream :D

WHOO!!...wad a meaningful day

decided to volunteer at a childcare at eunos primary school...was actually seriously nervous..."wad if the kids dun like me?" or "wad if they dun wanna talk"...but after reaching there...realised that they were such a friendly bunch...they were eager to talk and play..immediately felt attached to the place already...playing with them was a joy

To the the kids enjoy and have fun...it was such a good feeling to see them happy...feeling this reassured me that im doing the right thing and this is what i would wanna do in future...bring happiness to others...after all...they're kids...they're supposed to have fun :D

well...will probably be going back soon...but i still wanna enjoy my holidays...thats important too :D

AWW man im confused :(

Most of you all would know that im a christian already but for some reason i dun feel like i am...i mean...i really do wanna believe in God but when i pray and things like that...i dun feel the conviction...even though i've seen so many examples of his existence in many things...but i just cant bring myself to believe in him as much as others do...and after much reading up..i found out why

Its the Bible...i have no problems believing that the Great One sits upon his Holy throne up in heaven...but i have problems with the Bible...the things in the Bible are so...so...i dunno...theres many things in the Bible that i do not agree with...and i dun believe whole-sale...its like...parts of the bible i can believe...cuz its been proven...some parts i can believe becuz of faith...but some i just simply cant...just the very thought of what the bible is saying seems so...with lack of better word..evil :(

An example?...Zechariah 14 1-2...god says..." the city will be captured...the houses ransacked..and the women raped...yes..God said this...he allowed the women to be raped...perhaps i dun understand the full bible...but this was in the new testament...and it just seems so evil a God portrayed :(

Another is Luke 12 47-48...this section in my bible is in red...which means its the word of christ...it says " That servants who knows his master's will and does not get ready or does not do what his master wants will be beaten with many blows...This part perhaps shows that you have to follow authorities...which would be ok...but my concern is that they allowed slavery...the Bible is Gods word and this is the words of Christ...its as if they endorses slavery...shouldn't slavery be stopped?...why is it still there and "rules" are even made for slaves to follow...maybe guidelines is a better word...guidelines are made for Masters as to whether he should punish his slave and on what conditions...

its such things in the bible that worries me...and just a note...this 2 examples are frm the new testament...many argue that the old testament portrays the wrath of god...while the new one shows a more loving one...?????

there are many more examples...but you get my idea...i really still want to believe in him...but im not gonna say that i believe the Bible 100%...cuz there are somethings in it i dun wanna believe :(