Pulled thru...again

Once again...my great brother pulled me thru again...and those who expressed concern...call me self indulging...but those comments really means a lot to me...its good to know that people care :D

Anyway...storms over...time to get on with life...i cant just give up on my passion like this...it would be a waste...theres much more worry going on in the world...much more than these small things i go thru

Of course all of you heard of the latest news of the slashing case where 20 innocent bystanders were slashed...theres something worrisome going on...first Darren...now this...singapore is gonna have a lot of problems on their hand...so its best if we don't go out too late at night...dun attracted attention to ourselves...steer clear of any suspicious activities...

Well...guess more is soon to come...all we can do is hope that this storm will clear quickly...

Im almost giving up....

I cant keep it up anymore...i just cant...everytime i want to say something with good intention...i end up screwing it up...i dun even trust myself to speak anymore...perhaps its becuz im not putting my message thru the right way...but i really dun mean any harm...i really was worried and wanted to help...in case its too late...but my message never got thru...i fail in communication skills...who am i to think that i can help others..especially when i cant even help myself...

Silence is my worst enemy...one of my classmate said before..."just dun talk to him for 1 week and he will come crawling back to you"...i admit...its true...so very true...now all of you know my weakness...happy using it against me...but i really cant take it...i cant take silence...ignoring me is the worst things anyone can do to me...it pains me to no end...but things were never about me...no...i try my best to help others...but unsure if i ever succeed...i always put up a strong front...so that others would not have to worry about me...for me..its all about others...but sometimes not getting a respond is even more hurtful...but if i think like this...then im not really helping becuz i want to...

I no longer trust myself anymore...for those whom i am someway or another helping...im sorry...i dun think i can continue...im gonna still go on studying...perhaps theres still hope for me...but as of now...im not gonna take any chances of ruining a persons life...i guess its safest to simply not talk unless needed...

But im not gonna give up...not for the long term...i dunno how long i can last...but i know there are people who still loves(not BF GF kind) me...and even though its those whom i am closest to that i hurt the most...im still gonna try...untill i run out of energy...im not gonna stop trying.