Haiz...I let jealousy get the better of me

Not in the really bad way though... but why is it that im so affected when someone does something that i cant... :(

Why is it that some people can eat super nice things almost every dinner...or go for courses or lessons to improve themselves or their talent...or get what they want without worrying too much about price...some peepz meals can go up to over 20 bucks while mine usually only abt $5...and their fathers can be so nice while mine is the MAIN reason why im feeling like that...i guess im supposed to appreciate him but sometimes its just so hard to do that...

im pretty sure today he'll irritate me again...he does that so much it seems natural already...and i can already tell he's about to open his beak to sprout worthless comments that does not contribute to any improvement...it pleases him to just say things that dun contribute anything and then just say it to irritate people...and only he can be angry..when he angry everyone must give in to him...but when others angry he gets angry becuz we angry...the way he eats reminds me of.......arrgh forget it..i can go on forever making this post endless -.-

what an eventful few days

Well...havent blogged for ages...so i believe you people will be surprise to hear this

IM A CHRISTIAN NOW!!...seriously!!

im not sure how to explain really...but then i've followed my instinct in my life and it always worked out for me...so instincts told me to go for it...but then again..is it instinct...or is it something else?

anyway...had a sleep over at my kor's house cuz his parents were having a church cell outing to a goat farm, mushroom farm and orchid farm...so i went over on friday and stayed overnight...the thingy was on saturday...and then stayed overnight again till sunday(today)

its was also thru these 3 days did i feel the change :D...i must really thank theodore (kor) and his family for sharing the word of god with me...at first i was still the usual...not believing and all...but then on saturday when i attended service...somethings the pastor was sharing surprised me so much...and then something seemed to click into place...and i realised that he may be true...my testimony is kinda personal and still not really comfortable with sharing with random public now...paiseh :P

but suffice it is to say...im feeling much more than i ever felt...seriously...tts why i said i dunno how to explain...but im happy with my decision...and i must really thank all the people in my life...especially those who have tried to open my eyes...theodore...peggy...jerry...nicholas...alvin...mr wee...edwin...and im sure many more others...thanks so much...

well..im sure my life will probably be much more interesting now..its kinda like a new journey for me...and im blessed to have great frens and God walking along with me :D

WHOO!!...tired day...

But it was FUN!!...woke up late and rushed to school to do spring cleaning on our class...and it was so fun...its funny to see Jim going nuts over cleanliness ...and to see him and jocelyn bicker around :P...then seeing teddy's blur face while vacuuming and talking abt sexual appetite:P..i cant believe jocelyn said that :P...but still...it was fun to spring clean together :D...so many laughs and joy :D

Then later had lunch at Manhattan fish market...guess thats the part where my spirits lowered...as usual...experiencing weirdness in my brain again...but MOOOVING ON!!

We watched Inception and it was such an awesome show...really made you feel smarter :P...its really a great show and worth the time...

Well...tts all really...may not seem much but such things are really meaningful...we only have ONE life...we need to treasure it to the fullest....and make the most out of it!

YOG FLAME!

WAH...today got to see the YOG flame live!...kinda cool for an experience...but the wait was boring as hell...we waited almost forever just for the flame to come...and then after the flame pass we went back to goofing ard as usual..

now im super tired and need rest man...too muchh screaming and yelling

The term is coming to an end!

ok who am i kidding?...not yet...but soon

WELL!!!!...the test was hard...HARD!!...jeez...but still..its over...no worries for the test...

But after these few months...theres so much to talk abt that i havent talked abt...

Jim and Jocelyn is right...not all of us practise what we have learnt...we spent hours learning about communications and so many other valuable skills and all we use them for are in our test and exam...we need to apply them more to our life...

After today...i realised how much has happened in the class...i always thought that the class bonded quite well and i still think so...but that is becuz of my past in secondary school...this class showed a bond that i never experienced before...i never felt the same bond in sec sch...so maybe to you all its normal..but to me its not...it GREAT!...but i guess after hearing wad some of my fren said...i kinda agreed...we said we bond but did we really bond AS A CLASS?...maybe not...

It wasnt fun to see the atmosphere in class these few days...things no longer seemed like the fun and happy living in the first few weeks...maybe its natural...we all have our differences..and there will definitely come a point where we will have conflict...but come on peepz...we just had a test on conflict management!

But still...its gonna be hard...we have 2 and a something more years to go...i believe we can be one united class...but its gotta start somewhere!

Reading all those comments on facebook really put me through cognitive dissonance :P...i always thought we were a united class...but after reading what some of you said...i think otherwise...we really need to practise empathy like we learnt...we're gonna do this for the rest of our life...why not start now?

Im gonna do my best to help.....

But another thing that makes my blood boil...LET ME GET ONE THING STRAIGHT AND CLEAR...THERE IS NTHING WRONG WITH BEING CHILD LIKE OR CHILDISH!! to all you nut cases that likes to live life in a square box...think abt this...what if someone tells you that you too serious...dunno how to have fun...wad will you think? Yes...at our age we are supposed to be serious and i agree...but why take the fun outta life...not saying that serious peeps cant have fun...but ever heard of the term "child at heart"?...some of us...myself included...like to have fun in life...and some of it includes behaving more child like...never forget that children can be very innocent and fun loving ok?...I found out that i really really HATE serious people...as in those that are forever serious and dun have fun...so those of you who thinks you're serious but can have fun...reeeelax...you're normal...this message goes out to those who are serious and cant have fun....LOOOSEN UPP!!!!...Jeez....I spent most of my time bumbling around...but when work comes i can get serious...but not too serious...theres a fun side in work too you know...i hate it when people say...its work time...get serious...thats bullshit!...we can have fun while working too!

ok..that felt good :P...oh well..finally a decent post after all these boring ones...:D

GOSH!

studying Dynamics of Interpersonal Effectiveness (DIE!!) now...and its a horror!!

So many little terms to understand...one lecture can have abt 5-10 different terms or points to take note of...jeez...

cant wait for the test tmr to be over...then its YOG time!!!!...YES!!...maybe i'll study a little...but its a break..cant wait for tmr to be over!

RAWR!!...studying studying :(

Why?...well..cuz everyone else is studying as well -.-...rats..

and speaking of rats...mousehunt on FB actually quite cute lei :P

anyway...just found out my results of 2 of my ICA presentation for social work...one A and one B...satisfied :D

and also...im writing a new book...its abt ants!...but as usual...too lazy to continue writing...but must write lei..like very interesting to write a book ! :D

anyways...everything else is the same lo...nthing new :(

terms coming to an end liao...with study break ( translates to holidays) coming up due to YOG...can sleep at home :D tmr oso no need go school...but must study..sian :(

Whoa...had a great week...rather ok..been doing loads of stuff :D

But what striked me most was a BBQ i went today...it started at 7...it was hosted by evangel church and open to public....there i saw there i saw something that i found so....*loss for words*

There was such a long queue...why?..FREE FOOD!...yes...half of the peepz just came for the food...no courtesy to even stay to chat...and worse was some shamefully just took the food ON PLATES and went home...saw one lady carrying 3 plates of piled high food going up the life while some others were seen eating rather far away from the area the BBQ was held...it toook only abt 30-45 min for all the food to disappear...and there were still queues!...god -.-

i went to yishun park with my frens and by the time i came back..no more food...poor me had to go home to find food for dinner :P...cuz i wont act like a starving dog going through scraps of food....and im proud to say that i did not act like a starving dog rushing for free food -.-

i mean...maybe some low income family do need to take the chance to grab while they can...but please do so with dignity...and at least stay to chat or something...dun just come down frm your house...queue...get the food...AND GO HOME!!!...gosh...but the pleasing thing too see is that the long queue comprised of mostly adults...probably parents in their 30s to 40s...maybe 50s...nice to know that these embarrassing habits are kept only mostly to the earlier generations...at least we teens are not affected :P...well most of us...

oh well...one more exam this week...dynamics of interpersonal effectiveness....hope it goes well :P