im scared...worried for my friendship...what if people start leaving me cuz of who i am...or they scared of me...or whatever reason...im sick of always going around alone...i wanna be with people...but then when im in a crowd..i get more quiet...such a fail la me..
cant really be sure what kinda person i really am anymore...loner or social?...my future job requires me to be social...but how can i be social when im such a loner...and what if other things happens...so irritating to have so much nonsense in life...i envy those who can live life happy and bouncy...the only time when im happy and bouncy is probably when im with people im really close to...but get to close...also got problem...sick :(
anyway i guess during attachment would be better...meeting new people...can be a problem..expecially they are so christianly...gonna get on my nerves for sure :(
