Whoa downright hotness!
Yea so during my attachment i was asked to make videos and as i was going thru all the photos i noticed someone that looked almost exactly like "E"...like an older version of "E". It was amazing..and i immediately fell in like :x
Well can't say i didn't expect it. Nowadays even when i hear "E"s name i will react as well. Or if i hear anything that reminds me of my time with "E". But seeing this new person, i really wish i could met that person. All i have now are little photos here and there but really, seems like such a nice person. This is honestly the first time someone has been able to make me ignore "E" in my mind, and we haven't even met. Imagine if i managed to meet the person..how awesome would that be? :D
But of course...my life sucks and my hopes had to be dashed. Attachment is ending soon and there is no more opportunities to see the person. Ok can i just call that person "E2"..makes it easier for me. So "E2" is from NUS, part of their community service club. "E2" comes by for some events at the SAC. But when i checked the events timetable, NUS CSC was not coming by anymore, at least not when im here. This meant that i got no chance to get to know "E2" :,(
Further more today i went on a stalking spree...find out more abt "E2". I found out that "E2" isnt only a NUS student. "E2" went to sweden for an exchange program in another uni. Also an intern at NVCP. "E2" also graduated from serangoon JC...Smart kid sia :P ARGH the more i think abt "E2" the more i wanna meet "E2" This is so annoying that i can't :( and just like this a potential person goes :( sniffs
But oh well..loyalty still reserved for "E"...at least until someone like "E2" really enters my life...Somemore today there was a student researcher in the office also...another damn hot one :D...my god i realized i changed so much...i've become much more shallow...haha getting attracted by looks so quickly. But i guess how nice the person is still the most important to me...i really just want another person in my life.
Oh well...so i guess for now its still "E" in my head...and probably in there for awhile...anyway attachments ending soon so i guess i'll have a short break before the next lap of my life..NS
Thursday, January 31, 2013
Monday, January 14, 2013
Life O Life
I love "E", ok bye :P
No im kidding, well yea i still love "E", obviously, and nowadays its all the much harder cuz i see "E" on a daily basis cuz i cycle past the bus stop that "E" takes the bus to school. so it means i will be seeing "E" a lot more than i can take probably.
Anyways i just updated both my blogs, which kinda helped me think thru abt my life. This is probably how useful blogging is, it helps me to think thru about things. For now, life is kinda a struggle. Cuz on one had, my heart remains true to "E", but it is getting tugged with the idea of going for another person that i do love as well. Well i dunno if its love, but i definitely do like her.
Well other than "E", which i talked about like for ages in my other blog already, other parts of my life is also ups and downs. BB and attachment is somewhat ok..BB has been fantastic as we move into the new year, and even tho im only gonna be available for 4 months before potentially entering NS, im still gonna make the fullest of it. attachment started off bad but is slowly improving. I cant wait for it to end so i can be more focused on other aspects of my life. Abt NS, well apparently its gonna be tough for me and i have been training up (irregular jogging, Hey im trying okae) and hopefully i can be slightly more in shape before entering. I really miss a lot of my kiddos at the student care, it seems like ages since i last visited them...probably the only aspect that really is keeping me in check are my BB boys. being focused on their well being keeps more occupied, and playing games with them helps solve some stress.
So all in all, i dunno, i might update my other blog a little more consistently now that i got back to it, but also now that a lot more people seem to be getting thru that password, well i can filter my content, but honestly if ppl broke thru the password then there is nthing much more to hide anyway :P
No im kidding, well yea i still love "E", obviously, and nowadays its all the much harder cuz i see "E" on a daily basis cuz i cycle past the bus stop that "E" takes the bus to school. so it means i will be seeing "E" a lot more than i can take probably.
Anyways i just updated both my blogs, which kinda helped me think thru abt my life. This is probably how useful blogging is, it helps me to think thru about things. For now, life is kinda a struggle. Cuz on one had, my heart remains true to "E", but it is getting tugged with the idea of going for another person that i do love as well. Well i dunno if its love, but i definitely do like her.
Well other than "E", which i talked about like for ages in my other blog already, other parts of my life is also ups and downs. BB and attachment is somewhat ok..BB has been fantastic as we move into the new year, and even tho im only gonna be available for 4 months before potentially entering NS, im still gonna make the fullest of it. attachment started off bad but is slowly improving. I cant wait for it to end so i can be more focused on other aspects of my life. Abt NS, well apparently its gonna be tough for me and i have been training up (irregular jogging, Hey im trying okae) and hopefully i can be slightly more in shape before entering. I really miss a lot of my kiddos at the student care, it seems like ages since i last visited them...probably the only aspect that really is keeping me in check are my BB boys. being focused on their well being keeps more occupied, and playing games with them helps solve some stress.
So all in all, i dunno, i might update my other blog a little more consistently now that i got back to it, but also now that a lot more people seem to be getting thru that password, well i can filter my content, but honestly if ppl broke thru the password then there is nthing much more to hide anyway :P
Tuesday, January 1, 2013
New years here, old troubles also here
Its the new year...but somehow life seems like its not gonna change munch for me
Well it was good though cuz i spent my countdown with BAMS. We bought tons of food and really just chatted about life and all the nonsense. It was good, but ruined somewhat because i managed to see "E"...yea...even on new years i have the luck to see "E" with the friends. I kinda wished that i could have spent new years with "E", but i guess somethings are not meant to be.
Even now i have attachment, which is sucking really bad cuz i hate it. Coupled with the fact that another friend of mine knows about me...thankfully im close to her so im not so worried. But sometimes i wonder if its a good thing. Then again im lucky to be among people who i can trust and love, and they all play a huge role in my life.
So as the new year comes, i can look forward to a window of freedom before going into NS. "E" is taking O lvl this year as well. Wish "E" would do well i guess, but after Os, i wont even know where "E" will go. Maybe this year i'll be luckier, and maybe miracles might happen.
Well it was good though cuz i spent my countdown with BAMS. We bought tons of food and really just chatted about life and all the nonsense. It was good, but ruined somewhat because i managed to see "E"...yea...even on new years i have the luck to see "E" with the friends. I kinda wished that i could have spent new years with "E", but i guess somethings are not meant to be.
Even now i have attachment, which is sucking really bad cuz i hate it. Coupled with the fact that another friend of mine knows about me...thankfully im close to her so im not so worried. But sometimes i wonder if its a good thing. Then again im lucky to be among people who i can trust and love, and they all play a huge role in my life.
So as the new year comes, i can look forward to a window of freedom before going into NS. "E" is taking O lvl this year as well. Wish "E" would do well i guess, but after Os, i wont even know where "E" will go. Maybe this year i'll be luckier, and maybe miracles might happen.
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