Tmr is the sociology exam!!!

At first wasn't that stress one...but then after going to school and seeing all the others studying and slogging like ***s...i now feel the stress...but not frm the exam itself..but more from the "peer pressure" :(...i know...it sounds weird..but i dunno...everytime i see one of them studying...i feel so pressured to do the same...but then i question why i study

Its like...are we really studying for ourselves?...many will immediately say yes becuz they want the results...but thinking again...do we really REALLY remember wad we study in years to come...do we rmb the math formula's we learnt in school?...i doubt so...at least not all...so does it all not boil down to one simple fact...we are studying simply for the results...you would say that i learn something frm it..but no..learning only occurs if there is a permanant change in your lifestyle!...if we forget something we learnt..then its not learning...so we study for the results whether we like it or not...we're engineered into robots that automatically start studying when the exams are near...gain the ability to vomit out all the facts when any other random days we cant even answer in a coherent manner...so wad are we?...we're robot studying for the sake of anything else BUT ourselves :(....sucks to be like this...i wont say im not like this..but im gonna be different!

For this sociology exam..im going to simply skim and scan thru and rely on all the lectures we had previously studies...using the information that i've learnt frm those lectures to take into the exam hall..im not gonna slog like ***s or study like robots...im not gonna draw out elaborate mindmaps or notes...im gonna go into the exam hall and use what have already been implemented in my life to answer the question...cuz things that are implemented in my life are the things that i've LEARNT!...not things that i force myself to remember for an occasion and then forget abt it!

of course...i dun expect an A out of this...or maybe even a pass...i may even fail the exam...if that is the case then i'll whole-heartedly accept the consequences....but at least i'll feel better knowing that i have not become "the beast that society engineered us to be".