Its finally here...one year...been so long
I guess im quite prepared also...i have a whole day worth of distractions planned just so i can get over today at least...and i know its not enough because its just gonna get worse as the days go by..but i don't have much of a choice...im still waiting...maybe a miracle will happen? but for now im just more in the mood to think back to all the happy times i had together
I miss talking to "E". After hearing about stories of other couples...i kinda wish we succeeded as well...live happily ever after...but somehow a little part of me also knew it wouldn't have happened. But i miss having you...who can listen to me..understand me, ok although sometimes you are a douche :P but still weird thing is that it never affected me...you really were special...and FUCK this post..i find having to dodge and circle around the writing a pain in the ass...im just gonna end this right here and go somewhere else to write...so for now...hopefully later i'll have a good enough distraction and be done with the day...and then continue to survive the days to come...maybe another year...maybe 8 years..or maybe just 1 more day...who knows...
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