Chatrooms!

A bit of self disclosure here...i actually wanted to post this on my private blog one..but i guess its not that bad enough to end up there

So yea...i do go to chatrooms once in awhile...started off when my ex broke up...i needed someone to talk to...or maybe just a "replacement" person...not sure what..but it spured me to try and go into IRCs to chat...i usually refrained from doing so cuz of all the stories i've heard..but honestly..its not too bad..as long as you make sure you're not con into something.

Well so in all honesty...chatrooms really are dangerous places...most people in there are either looking for sex...or selling stuff...well the second isnt so bad..but sometimes you see the "unusual" stuffs and you know its a con job...but usually i only enter IRCs when im feeling lonely or down...both of which puts me in a dangerous position...but thankfully i never fell into any traps before :P

anyway what prompted me to make this post was cuz im in the IRC now :P haha well actually i didnt have any plans to but  after being "rejected" for a chat (honestly no hard feelings formed- in case you're reading this)...i had no one else to talk to so i bounced in...and guess what..was immediately ambushed by one of those "hi...intro" type...well im not gonna bother explaining what those types are...but trust me..its fake, boring, shallow and sometimes disgusting.

But thats not the point...the point is that im currently talking to a married person...and he's weird...he's has a wife but he's telling me abt how he sleeps around with other people still...so i ask him doesn't he feel bad or like doesn't he wanna settle down..and he told me that if he settles down then its no longer exciting or fun. I was disgusted...not only is he not being loyal to his wife...he still has the cheek to think that its fine and dandy...ugh

but i guess he does make one true fact...when you settle down you really gotta be ready..if not then better not...cuz you will end up hurting your partner. (ok intermission...seee....i just got another convo pop up asking if i would accept SGD2000 in exchange for some fun -.-)...well thats the kinda thing that happens in chatroom...anyway back to topic...so yea...i doubt im ready to settle yet...maybe my heart is still wandering around too much or something..but i know that if i wanna get into a serious relationship now..it might end in disaster...however it doesn't mean that i dont long for a companion..one that i can spend my life with...in fact i really really want that...but i have no idea why even with that longing i still know that i might be unfaithful...kinda contradictory..but i guess thats the whole idea abt being unclear...

oh well...im still in IRC now anyway...but also watching man vs wild in the process...so i guess thats gonna be my way of distracting myself frm my problems for today..